thoughts

I feel that my blog is lacking some of that deep-though-facebook-link-worthy-stuff. So here you have it. A whole bunch of deep from my mind. Hope it doesn't bore you.

I know I have written about this before, but I believe one of my greatest weaknesses is having to say goodbye. I don't ever cry.... unless there is a goodby involved. There is something about goodbyes that rip at your heart and tear at your soul. They never completely heal. I have a soft spot in my heart for several people that I may never talk to again. The boy from Jr. High that hugged me tight and I cried. Those groups of people I only knew for a week. That team mate that stuck with me for so long but slowly diminished out of my life. That class full of innocent pretenders that became so close. Those coaches that did so much for me I would never be able to thank them. Truth is...I miss you...all the time. Things are different now. They may be for the better, but they never feel any easier. I think about you often, and it saddens me when you don't want to talk. All I want is to talk and laugh like we used to even if it is just for one night. But I have come to learn something about goodbyes. They can never return to they way they were. They will never feel the same. Because the truth is we have changed. We have grown {not literally of course...}. And we have become new and greater people. The shapes of our puzzle pieces have changed, and we no longer fit together the way we used to. But even if we never speak to each other again, I hope you never forget the closeness we had, never forget the inside jokes, or the nicknames, and never ever forget the memories. And if you ever want to talk. I will be here...waiting.

So now that I have proclaimed my feelings towards the people I miss, I thought I might just proclaim my feelings on the people I have right now, since I know that the people I am with today, will be the ones I cry over tomorrow. So why not appreciate what I have?
Tonight was one of those nights where everything in the gym is just right. One of those sweet moments when you remember why you have done this so long and why you love it so much. Today we all came together and hit hard. With the music booming around us, and encouraging words being said you can't help but feel loved. You can't help but feel like you are in the right place with the right people. I just hope my team mates know how much I love and appreciate them. I know what it feels like to tumble in an empty gym and just want them to know how much I crave the days when we all come together. Thanks for being my team. It means the world to me.

<3 Teriyaki, StirFry, Kodee, Cid, Brittany, Brinna, Anedy, Cid, Kenz.



Feel my Sunlight




p.s. I finished my personal progress!!!!!!!!! I was torn because I like the look of the silver medallion better, but I am a tumbler that always strives for gold.... In the end I picked silver and am not sure how I feel about it... Can't I just have one of each?

p.s.s. I don't like when people bail. It makes me sad.