Wednesday, December 24, 2014

night changes

Does it ever drive you crazy 
Just how fast the night changes 
Everything that you’ve ever dreamed of 
Disappearing when you wake up 
But there’s nothing to be afraid of 
Even when the night changes

Well hello friends!

Have you ever just listened to a new album all the way through and had it speak to ever aspect of your life at that very moment? I have had One Directions new album playing for the last hour and a half and words can't even describe my emotions right now.

Does it ever drive you crazy just how fast the night changes?

I can't even explain how much this is about my life in this exact moment. It seems that my world is spinning at a million miles an hour in the right direction. It's almost like I have just begun to breath the most beautiful air just as the realization that it's all about to change knocks the wind out of me and I struggle to keep the last breath of sweet air in my lungs.

I don't know how else to explain it.

I was sitting here listening to this album when I came across a song called 18 when I thought "hey I'm 18!" but then literally thought "no... no that can't be right."

18 means I'm a senior in high school.
18 means my last year of public school.
18 means all the friends that I have gone to school with for as long as I can remember are about to become people I only see on Facebook.
18 means seminary council is almost over.
18 means my life right now is about to become memories.
18 means mission papers.
18 means college decision.
18 means graduation.
18 means this is my last Christmas before I leave on a mission.
18 means attending the farewells of all of my friends.
18 means my night is changing.

As I pondered these things I realized just how fast these changes are happening and just how little I can do to stop it.

Santa has bought and wrapped my mission luggage, and the colleges have my applications. Whether I like it or not things are about to change.

All my life has been planned up until graduation. Every year I left school in the Summer with complete assurance that I would find myself sitting in another desk within three months. This is the first time the plans have been changed.

While it's everything I've ever dreamed of-- Graduating, going on a mission, attending college-- It still drives me crazy just how fast the night is changing.

But even though it seems that things are about to change, many amazing things are happening as well!

While I've been away on holiday from my blog (do I sound British? Oh please say I sound British!) many things have happened!

Last weekend I went to Cotillion with the adorable Hayden Rigby and had a blast! Thanks again Hayden!


Turns out December was also a month for tumbling reunions. I got to see Anedy and Shawn who are some of my favorite former teammates at the Utah Gymnastics Preview...


and a few days after that I got a surprise call from one of my other former teammates, B, telling me to come to the gym because all my best friends were coming to visit!


It was so much fun to see everyone!

Another exciting gym happening took place at our annual competition team party which I was working. I was playing games with the 7 years old and under group when all of the sudden one of our little girls gets very big eyes and grabs onto me for dear life. I turned around to see a large Grinch walk into the gym just as a few other little girls begin to notice and demand hugs. All the older kids thought he was awesome, but some of the little ones weren't convinced, which was great for me because now they all think I'm a superhero because I saved them from the scary Grinch. And then after the Grinch left I gained a small fan club. It's moments like this when I love being a tumbling coach.

And perhaps one of my favorite parts of December was our annual ginger bread making party with the Daniels. Which is technically a graham cracker making party because we can't handle real ginger bread. We have done this every year for as long as I can remember and this year is the last year that we will all be here since both Lauren and I will be on a mission next time this activity comes around. I'd say it was a success even though the houses haven't gotten any better over the years.

I'm also proud to say that my house is the only one still standing at my house.

December has been good and OH LOOK IT"S CHRISTMAS EVE!!! In case I don't get around to posting again before Christmas I hope everyone has a fantastic holiday and I wish you all the joy and happiness I can summon. Thank you all so much for taking the time to read my blog. Without you this blog would just be words in the universe. I love you all! Merry Christmas!

feel my sunlight

p.s. Since it's Christmas Eve, check out these two awesome videos!


  1. I wrote a super long amazing comment, but then I wasn't logged in and I think the internet lost it :(
    Thing number one - for a moment, you did sound a little British :)
    Thing number two - graduating high school is weird. Your yearly routine is suddenly gone and you have to do new unfamiliar things. I remember that "oh my gosh high school is ending what do I do with my life I'm never gonna see these people again" feeling quite well. You see the important people and debate whether or not to delete the rest of them on Facebook. College is fun tho :D And I'm sure your mission will be amazingtastic and I'm gonna write to you cuz you're awesome :) Also, grad parties are weird when the graduate is your age and you went to kindergarten with them and suddenly your own grad party.... I understand :)

    Merry Christmas!!

    <3 Marie-Rose

    1. I hate when things like that happen! haha thank you! I have always aspired to be as classy as those British peps! I agree so much! It's weird because I am so extremely excited about the future, but at the same time I don't want the fun things that are happening right now to end. Oh please oh please write me! That would make me so serendipitously happy!

      -Whit :)

  2. Thank you so much for sharing this! I am also freaking out about my night changing and it's so good to hear someone else's thoughts on dealing with it (even though I wouldn't wish that stress on anyone :D). I love the little glimpses you gave us into your life, too. Gingerbread houses, the Grinch, and dates, oh my! So fun!


    P.S. You totally did sound British and I am totally jealous.

    1. Ahh Isn't it the craziest thing?! It's like everything is about to change and you are excited for it, but you just aren't ready for it quite yet. haha Thanks! I do aspire to be as classy as those British peps.



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